In-Born or Acquired or Influenced or Forced Traits

Sometimes I wonder, whether my response/ behavior/ attitude towards something or some situation is my in-born trait( which we can consider true/original or actual trait) or it is a trait acquired through own life experiences which affect our genes or it is a trait which is influenced by someone else experience or thought or may be it is a trait which is forced by oneself on self.

This mann-ki-baat is all about the dilemma I/We/us faced during an introspection.

Let me share one of my such dilemma.

In mathematics you have studied that once we start increasing number of independent variables to determine the dependent variable value, regression equation start changing shape from linear to polynomial and now it will becomes more difficult to determine dependent value but but but it will be accurate.

But when we apply this principle to human brain (where independent variable is our various thoughts in order to make a descision which is dependent variable in our case),it’s tough or mostly impossible to solve the  polynomial equation. Thats where dilemma enters.

Few years ago I joined one corporate organisation. There I witnessed one culture that baffled my brain little bit at first. Till  now regression equation was linear  But after discussing that culture with friends/ colleagues brain reached higher state of puzzleness cause regression equation took a shape of polynomial equation as number of thoughts as a input to brain increased. 

The culture I was refering above is Corporate Gift Distribution Before the festival of light or we can say topmost festival of India i.e. Diwali.

In one of my previous blogs or what my friends say man-ki-baat named as The baffling Brain, I had mentioned about that culture. If you have lesuire time, glance through that blog.

Yeah so the culture was accepting gifts on diwali from vendors which provide different services to our organisation. After discussing that culture with diffrent people, one doubt raised in my mind i.e. is it ethical or morally right to accept gifts from vendors on diwali.

After considering every aspect I decided to not accept gifts this year.

It was sorted untill one vendor visited my office to distribute diwali gift. Luckily that day was my weekly off. He didn’t knew that. Then he called me over phone to ask where to drop that gift. I denied to accept gift. He asked once more. I again denied his request in crumbled voice. Yes in crumbled voice maybe cause tounge want to accept but deep down my mind was guiding tounge to say No. At last he said okay sir, happy diwali. And in return I wished him and disconnected the call.

Bahut thoda sa dukh hua ki gift (most probably a silver coin , but who knows) haath se nikal gaya, but I easily moved on.

Moved on to ese likh raha jese relationship se bahar nikla hu😀😀

Next day when my colleague who is my roommate too, brought the gifts he received, my brain again goes into thinking mode. It started questioning again that, whether what I did is my own choice or it is influenced by someone other or I forced myself to do this in lieu of moral values or we can say ethics.

I bet many of you may have faced such dilemma that, what you have done is because you wanted to do it or because of someone’s influence or just to look good you did it.

To find out the correct answer, self introspection is the only way.

I’m still finding out the dominant trait behind my descision to not accept gifts from the vendors. Most probably it will be a forced trait i.e. I did so to look good. But I really want it to be an in-born trait. But in this era resolving this dilemma is not possible unless and until I use the help of narco test. 😀😀😀

So basically this man-ki-baat was all about dilemma we face to find out who we are what we are actually.

Question:

Can we find out accurate answer of the question i.e. who am I? or what I am?

🙏………..Thanks……….🙏